What Should I DO?

hey guys~

I'm having a hard time here.......really hard...

As you guys know, I'm trying to taubat here....

BUT........There's a lot of stuff happening now....

ONE!

SUPER JUNIOR

As everybody know that I'm their girl...XD

And they're doing their come back...now....In RAMADHAN.....

HELLO!!!I'm trying to taubat here!

TWO!

INFINITE

I don't really have problem with them, I mean I still can control my love to them...

BUT the problem is................the person who sit next to me in my class.....YES,It's HOYA....

Every single day, she will be talking about them.....I don't have problem with that...

BUT, the real problem is.........I also started to scream with her about them....

THREE!

SISTAR

You guys might be thinking, "whaaaatt?"  or "how the hell sistar is disturbing her?"

well I am trying to make you say that...it's not the SISTAR SISTAR that I'm talking about...

It's the SISTER SISTAR........

If you still don't know this, my sister is completely AWESOME...TO HER FRIENDS lah...

but in my opinion, She's a crazy retarded perverted annoying bugger person in my life......

I can see the big different when she's with friends and us(me and other younger sister)......VERY BIG...

She's like, devil with two faces....

But sometimes I like to tease her saying that she's Kim Gyungjin(http://asianmediawiki.com/Kim_Kyung-Jin_(1983))

XDD

You see? There's a lot of stuff happening now... 

And I don't know how in the world I can taubat in peace..... :(

Sometimes when I'm at school, my mouth is very active and sometimes curse but I always censored it but, yeah.... 

I always tegur when someone do bad thing but they take it as I'm saying bad things to them... 

I didn't realized it until my friend said to me, "mulut kau ni memang laser kan?" and I was like,"really?Oh my god... Tak sedar pun... I was being honest whaat..." and she said,"yeah, right...too honest lah.." 0.o

But luckily nowadays, when I said something bad, I was like,"Astarghfirullahhalalazim!"(supposed to be astarghfirullahalazim..=.=lll)

I don't know wha to do already.....HELP!!!!

May be I should just stay quiet with everyone and doesn't say anything... 

So my mouth wouldn't be saying anything bad! okay?! 

But, I bet you'll be boring, aight shashimi? haha, kidding.....but seriously... 

I found out that it's boring, not to talk anything to anyone because then, I'll be sleepy and I'll sleep and when I woke up, I don't know what the hell is teacher talking about especially MATHEMATICS........the subject that I sleep on the most... Teacher's voice was like, serenade to my ears.....XD seriously....I don't get it, why the smartest person in maths doesn't fell asleep? guess what she said?She said that she sleep at 9 o'clock...sometimes 8.30........

And me? the EARLIEST that I can sleep is at 12 o'clock......And the LATEST is at 2.45..... 

I guess I'm an owl?haha...but I'm not lying or over exaggerating...really..... 

If your my best friend, and you sleep over at my house, you won't be sleeping.... 

unless you're a smart person who have self timer that will sleep at a certain time.....XD 

OR we don't have anything to talk to.......

There's one thing I don't like to do about talking.....

GOSSIPING.... 

Islam taught us not to talk bad about person or accuse that person doing something that she/he didn't do... 

I always avoid it.... I don't want to talk about it... but the people around me in purposely gossip about that person....And of course I started to talk to...

BUT, I'll stop when I notice that I'm talking bad and I'll stop immediately...and blame the person that started,like"woi!Choi!stop talking!Aigoo, you make me talking bad about ______!!"....................

I'm not the person who WANT to talk bad about someone....

so, seriously, If you want to gossip, just keep it yourself, don't make sins...okay?

GOOD LUCK TO PEOPLE THAT ARE TRYING TO TAUBAT JUST LIKE ME!

HAVE A NICE RAMADHAN!! :)